Weekend and marriage

Its already saturday now..how time flies without waiting for anything....

Today, my colleague got married, and another one is tomorrow. I only will be going for today's wedding, and not tomorrow since it will takes place in Kuala Pilah...jauh tu...

Huhuh talking about marriage..I'm really happy to see people getting married and have babies..

it feels like they are already on top of the world...

And on another note, looks at what happen to Waheeda n Akhil...

come on lah Waheeda, ko jgn nak malukan pempuan bertudung..nak berdakwah konon...tp blh gi lepak2 kat pantai mlm2...tak tahu ker bergaul dgn yg bukan muhrim tu haram dik ooooiii..

Eh, marah lak aku..tpnya kan dah asyik deny jer..kan Allah dah tunjuk....klu ko buat sesuatu especially yang menyakitkan org lain, lama kelamaan Allah akan tunjuk gak...

Dunia ni kecik jer..lagipun bangkai mmg tak leh tutup..

Cakap jer lah ko tu nak kan kat si Akhil tu...tapi biasalah..nak ckp takut...kan ke dia tu laki org...

Nanti klu si akhil tu dah cerai nanti..barulah best ko mengakukan...

Biasalah.. aku dah faham benar perangai pompuan mcm ko ni..

Uh aku dah melalut lak ni...

Oh gaji dah masuk...aku pun dah menghabiskan sedikit duit utk shopppinggg...

And tomorrow might be going to Ariani untuk menghabiskan lagi duit aku yg mmg dah semakin surut ni...

Anyway, congrats to Ja for having a baby boy...

p/s : aku dah beli bag yg aku idamkan..huhu i likeeeee...

Red Box

Yup, its right, for the first time in my life i do karaoke..

There are 4 of us, single ladies went to Red Box Karaoke on Saturday, 16th Mei. Kena mark date ni sbb first time pergi..

Well best gak karaoke ni..not as bad as I thought...Ok initially I thought pegi tmpt karaoke ni mcm tmpt yg tak baik ler..ala.. mcm tempat yg sosial giler...

Well after dah pegi, rasanya mcm tmpt lepaskan tension pun ada gak...

Best giler sbb boleh nyanyi lagu kesukaan dgn lirik yg betul..selalu aku hentam jer klu ala2 tak ingat tu....

Thats the update for last week, and hari ni baru lepas hntr chapter 1 to chapter 4 for my project 1..susahnya buat research ni eh..ni baru master, belum lagi PHD...rasanya mmg takdeler aku nak buat PHD..unless ada org sponsor..pastu gi lak oversea... oh indahnya...

And yesterday, mark the 7 year of my father passed away...

Ayah, I miss u and love u so much..and hopefully whatever doa, prayer and all the things that I've done will give u prosperous and blessed by Allah.

Amin..

Renung-renungkan

Pernah tak

• rasa macam ada kerja byk sgt.. tp tak tahu nak start dari mana.
• rasa macam penat sangat, and yet tak boleh relaks
• rasa macam rindu kat someone, and yet rasa tak boleh nak buat apa2 about that.. in this case i mean it for my parents...selalu gak klu rasa rindu sangat..aku sembahyang...pastu hbs je salam...terus menangis kat sejadah...
• rasa macam ada ramai kawan, tapi tak boleh luahkan anything to kawan ..
• rasa macam sunyi, tp sebenarnya ko kat environment yg bising
• rasa macam dah penat sangat dgn dugaan hidup ni, tp harus redha dan bersikap positif.
• terfikir apa yg korang dah achieve dlm dunia ni...rasa mcm dah ada degree and duit..tp aku tak rasa itu satu achievement.

argh.. bermacam2 rasa lagi yang aku rasa skg..tp aku tak tahu mcm mana nak keluarkan..

ya Allah, hulurkanlah bantuanmu, tolonglah aku yg lemah ini.

ya Allah, apakah ini kafarah atas dosa2 aku selama ini..

ya Allah ampunilah dosa2 ku ini...

Amin..

Down with flu

Huhu, the whole worlid is in bad situation right now..

With the situation of swine flu.. really makes me thinking on the trip to bali this july..is it safe? since bali is almost flock with all the tourist especially the white ones...

weekend is not great for me n my sis.. both of us were down with flu... she's even worse with fever and cough..and i manage to make sup daging for us..and it turn well too..

since i don't want to go to the clinic.. i boil the cinnamon stick with loads of water..and drink it..

it tastes ok for me...but the smell of cinnamon is strong...

it does help slow down the flu...and i'm hoping the flu will go away..

oh...i have loads of writing and testing to done...

hopefully, the flu will go away..

No title

its already 3 month that i didt update anything...

there's have been so many things happened to me

but the worst part is i lose my mother..

she passed away peacefully on 25th feb 2009... may Allah bless her..Amin..

now, actually i do want to blog about how she passed away.. but I couldn't..

the fact that i'm writing about her, already makes my eyes in tearss..

all I could say that its the biggest lost in my life...

never did I knew that it will take a toll in my life...

for the first time ever, i feel hopeless, loss, and sometimes i feel that i don't know how to go another day without having her in my life...

Me n my mother we need live separately, apart from when i went to UUM for study..

but still i still call her every other day, went home every two month, do my practical training and continue to work in JB.. just to be with her n my late dad...

Apart from that, i only separated with her when i go for a holiday..and that's all....

I'm not like the person who go for a boarding school and after that went to Uni and then continue to other places far from the parents place...

its just that I'm always being with her, and the fact that I can't be with her at the end of her life is killing me...

People say, Allah lebih sayangkan dia...tp sebenarnya... sangat susah nak menerima kenyataan...

A few days after she passed away, I kept googling to find out why it happened to me..

Adakah kafarah atas dosa aku ...or anything else...

Tapi lama kelamaan aku redha..Allah memudahkan pemergiannya..Allah tak mahu dia terseksa menanggung sakit yg lama..Kadang2 aku tgk org sakit ni..tak sembahyang.. jd bertambah dosanya...

Fast forward, then comes to the final exam..

I took 2 subject this sem, one of it was ok, but the other is hard...

I hope and pray that I can maintain a good result..Amin...

I hope that the future lies ahead for me is bright..Allah doesn't close one door without opening other...Amin...